In this Journal, I will attempt to strip away my protective veneer to view and communicate honestly what the truth is as I perceive it. My intent is to grow, for without an honest evaluation of the truth, how else can one fully absorb life's more difficult lessons and benefit by them. If I do this in secret, then I am still hiding behind a protective veneer, so it is being published online. If you find this Journal, you are welcome to read it and hopefully grow from it as well.



Monday, July 7, 2014

A New Business? An Un Heavenly Dream

This morning at 5:52 I awoke from a frustrating dream.

In this dream I had started a new business, but one that was undefined as to what it was. I found the employees to be indifferent and gossiping with one another.

I told them without customers, we had no reason to be and that it was crucial that we defined our business, set-up prospect lists so that I could launch a calling campaign to land some customers and that we must work together to serve those customers.

The indifference continued. Fortunately my long time executive assistant Sherry was there to help me. [In real life Sherry passed away last year]

Then I tried to reach my long ago business partner Jack who was a part of this new business but no-one could locate him.

When the dream ended, I was attending a meeting of a large long-established men's business club. [In real life I didn't view these clubs as a good use of my time, and other than briefly when I was 23 years old didn't consider joining them. They were also clubs discriminatory of women.]

The men in this club were laughing it up but doing nothing I found productive.

As I awoke and contemplated the dream, even writing some notes, I thought that on a subconscious level perhaps I no longer feel productive. I'm not out closing deals, building business relationships, making money and serving as CEO of a company.

I haven't been a CEO since 1991, nor a Board Chairman since 1994. I'm 69 years of age and putting my heart elsewhere but yet here is this frustrating dream.

Would I be happy as a CEO again? I don't believe so. Do I want to be in business again? Only if it served some greater purpose, hopefully one in which my portion of the funds would go to charity. Do I miss the action of running a business? No I don't.

Perhaps it is because most people value the power of a CEO and think of that person as important. But I feel a calling to a greater mission, one I must fulfill regardless of what other people may think.

I'm thankful for having been a corporate founder and CEO, which at the time was a dream come true, but this part of my life is in the past.

Dick


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