Marvin Kazan (1911 - 1999), was a very aggressive, strong-willed and determined man who refused to tolerate nonsense from anyone, and he undiplomatically let people know how he felt, even if it upset them.
He was the son of my grandfather's brother, kindly Uncle Jake and his wife, my Aunt Zena, a brilliant woman who touched my life in so many wonderful ways.
In this vivid dream, I told Marvin we needed to do certain things with our home but were unable to do so. Once he understood what we were unable to do, he said "Move this wall," and he started to move the wall, showing me how easy it is to do by someone determined to do it.
I told him we were unable to swim in the ocean - it was too cold, and we were not allowed to swim there. He went down the path to the ocean and when he asserted himself, the authorities allowed him to pass and he jumped into the sea. As the dream ended, I was about to join him in the water.
As I awoke, I was struck by how vivid the dream was. It was almost as if Marvin had actually been here and spoken to me.
My impression is that he was essentially saying to me, "Be assertive, be aggressive, be who you actually are."
Since 1991 after I began reading Gandhi's writings and those of other profound thinkers, in stages I've been transitioning into a more compassionate, gentle, giving person than the assertive, aggressive person I used to be.
But I am occasionally in conflict with myself as that assertive, aggressive person continues to live within me, and isn't as loving, patient, understanding and forgiving a person as I am continuing to become and desire to be.
Dick
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