In this Journal, I will attempt to strip away my protective veneer to view and communicate honestly what the truth is as I perceive it. My intent is to grow, for without an honest evaluation of the truth, how else can one fully absorb life's more difficult lessons and benefit by them. If I do this in secret, then I am still hiding behind a protective veneer, so it is being published online. If you find this Journal, you are welcome to read it and hopefully grow from it as well.



Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Unresolved Issues

On 4/21/13, I dreamt I was in a suit and tie, and was about to fail a college Spanish class. Nothing I did seemed to change that as I could not find the professor or the class, a class I seldom attended.

Finally someone told me that although I was on campus, the class was 15 minutes away and that I would have to hurry to get there in time. From where I was to where it was being held was all out doors and there was a rain storm in progress.

In my suit and tie, I began running through the rain to get there, aware of how bad I would look when I got there, if I got to the right place and got there in time. And I was aware the professor disliked me.

This is how the dream ended as the rain pelted me.

This is based on a real class I failed in 1962 at El Camino College. Four years before I became a devoted student and later earned a Bachelor's Degree and a Master's Degree, I was a terrible student and was disrespectful to this Spanish language professor who for understandable reasons made it clear he disliked me.

I earned the F he gave me and for over 50 years, never took another Spanish language class.

That is until now. At a private foreign language school, I am studying Spanish in a class designed for me and being taught by a very capable young teacher.

It is said that when the student is ready, the teacher will arrive. And after over 50 years, I am ready.

But apparently I'm still haunted by that Spanish language.experience from so long ago.

Dick

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